~am i really changing?~

have been back in PJ here for almost 1 week plus...kind of miss Kampar's life where i get to go anywhere i want with no curfew...

went out with lesley, james, aaron and hunt last saturday night. went over to fetch james than off we go to lesely house to fetch her. then, Aaron came back just right before we left lesely house, so call him to tag along together. while on the way to puchong to fetch sze hunt, Aaron said that something is missing and different about my car. due to my curiosity, so i ask him, what is different or missing from my car? it's still the same car that i'm driving and i never change anything about my car for a very very very long time. than Aaron ask for my Cd songs....than he loaded a disco disc into the player with those RnB songs and remix...when the songs started to play, than he said, that is what is missing from my car. he said that i change because i don't listen to those type of music anymore which last time i will be listening it most of the time with loud blass out from my stereo. i was like, WTF man!!!...

went over to Hunt's house and pick him up from there than went to some place opposite IOI Mall there and hang out. after that went to CC in puchong till around 12.30am than back we go. when i reach home i really think about what Aaron has said. did i really change? am i really different from the Brian that they once know? coming to a conclusion, i admit that i changed. but one thing i really wonder, what made me change? change into a person that my friends and i myself don't even know. i remember i use to go clubbing, or at least i try to make it twice a month, or even drink beer, but now, hahahahaha, i really doubt that i even know myself. all i can say is i don't know when did i lose the feeling of clubbing and drinking.

i remember, everytime i'm back in KL, even out wit my parents, i would drink beer together with them, but now it's like, haiz...i don't know what to say anymore...till now till today, i'm just asking myself, why am i changing? am i changing because of you? ever since what had happen between us, i swear to God that i won't change because of you...but why, why am i been influence by you so much? why....