~unfair~

just finish talking with you on the phone, i know that your very tired from working and over things that i going on in your life, but i'm really sorry because i can't do anything to help you...

sometimes i really don't understand why are they treating you like this. you already did what you can, you already did and try your best to make end meet, but yet, they still don't appreciate what you have done for them. i really don't know what can i do to help. now i really feel so useless. i really do what to go up straight to their face and tell them the actual situation that your going through and how you feel, but i know i can't do so, because you don't want it to be that way. all i can do is just respect and be by your side when you need somebody to release to. being there for you so that you could release everything out is the only thing that i can do for you, nothing more or nothing else that i can do to lessen your burden and problem that you facing.

when you told me about what is going on and how you feel, i really feel so heart pain. but what's the point? even i know everything, but i just can't do anything. i also can't say much because i don't even know all of them. besides, i clearly know that THEM is the 1st and 2nd place in you heart compare to anyone or anything else in this world. but is it worth? is it worth to be up set over things that you know that you have tried your best to maintain things and make it work? why is God being so unfair of putting you through all this trouble? why can't they just feel satisfy with what you have done for them and think on your side? is people really that selfish? is it they can really be so cruel? i really can't answer this...i just can't

friends are really important to you, you always think about others 1st instead of yourself. but why can't they also appreciate? why are they all treating you so badly? i know you have tried your best...i know your upset on how they all are treating you. i can't do anything for you, the only thing i can do for you is be there for you when you need someone to talk to...i'm sorry for being so useless...sorry