~Finals Over~

yup, final exam is over...it was suppose to end yesterday but thanks to my stupidity, i have to re-sit paper, hopefully this time i won't flung it again...

everybody is so excited that finals is finally over, but than, i don't have that kind of feeling, weird right...don't even know why myself. thought after finishing my today final paper i would be like others, shouting and saying YEAH, OVER LIAO...but than, i don't have that kind of feel. probably there is just too much things in my mind which i really want to get rid of. i don't know...just want to get far far away from all problems. sometimes i really do wonder why human can't be a problem free person? why does the word PROBLEM have to haunt everyone? well, i believe only god knows....

well, whatever is done is done, whatever happen already happen, so, i might just as well get along with it. no matter how or what things change into, so just be it...if it's faith that i have to go through all this, than i shall go through. because there is no point hoping that things might change into situation or things that i want. it will only hurt me in the end. anyway, 2 more weeks, than i can confirm myself over some things which i have long long hope for. but just guess it won't goes the way i want. just really having a very very bad feeling about it...well, no point me thinking about it now, 2 more weeks, that's all it takes and i will get my answer to my question. hopefully things will change and could work out. no matter is it the way i want or the other way round, i might just as well accept it.

one month from now, i will be going over to Australia for my sister convocation. just can't wait for that time to come. gonna be there for two weeks that's for sure...after that, if it's really suit me, than i might, I MIGHT settle down there. at least i get to start a new life if i really get to stay right. put everything behind, no matter what, no matter who...just start a new journey and keep everything as a memory....hahahha...even now, i'm already taking things as a memory to me, because i know, no point holding on and hoping. if it's gonna happen some day, might as well just let it happen now once and for all...

tomoro will be going back to KL...erm...let's see, should i feel happy about going back to KL? hmmm...maybe i should, least i get to see my parents, get to go training, and go places i want...it might take me off from all my problems here...yeah, just can't wait to go back and be in my room which i can be alone in with...ALONE is where i belong...and i'm coming very soon...wait for me....